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Sunday, August 31, 2008 •

Today I went swimming with my fellow UPIS alumna and family friend, ate Nikki.

Yaay! I love swimming and it’s definitely the best sport ever. Why??? Swimming is a very very good way to lose weight and tone your muscles. I used to swim twice a week last sem, and i think my body’s pretty much toned (except sa legs ko na mukha daw pata sabi ng kuya ko). Ha ha! You also get the opportunity to see hot guys in Speedo trunks. Double ha ha! Actually may pa-cute guy na daan ng daan sa harap namin, tho cute siya kebs lang kami ni ate. Nakabantay kasi parents namin, sayang! Triple ha ha!

So after that, we had our lunch at chowking. I ate a bowl of yummy lomi, just the best food to fill my hungry tummy. :) Ang dami kong kinakain lately and im happy bout that, yun nga lang dapat magsimula na ulit ako mag jogging. Yay to a healthier kaye!

Fortunately for you guys walang pictures! Quadruple ha ha!

Monday, August 25, 2008 •

grabe dugong dugo na utak ko kakasulat ng papers na imu-murder ng mga Prof na nagfi-feeling major, GE lang naman. i need a break, i need a kitkat. kidding aside, pagod na talaga ako. ayoko naman matapos ang sem, gusto ko lang matapos na ang lahat ng requirements - in short milagro ang kailangan ko. yaay

i wanna write about something,.. oh well next time na lang. :) and at least diba i have something to look forward to - Sept 1 (actually Sept 2) = Summer kind of Wonderful. can't wait!!!

Monday, August 18, 2008 • Who wore it better?

My cousin's red-white polka dot dress.

a. Herzl - she's gorgeous - I love her!
b. Kiersten - this is her blog, pagbigyan siya... (bwahahaha!)
c. I think it looks kind of the same on both of them, they're cousins! (both have German names la!?)

geesh. I can't believe Im wearing HER dress. Anw, vote people! just for fun! ha ha

Monday, August 11, 2008 •

I hate it when people call me Anorexic. Siguro nga I have eating and weight issues, but I'm not...

Okay, time for a little confession Kaye…

Nung nasa Los Banos pa ako (and alam ito ng dormies ko) may mga pagkakataon na hindi talaga ako kumakain ng kahit na ano except for oatmeal and wheat bread cos if I eat other food, ivo-vomit ko lang rin. I always ask them kung tumataba ba ako or what and kung positive ang sagot nila, nade-depress talaga ako at hindi kakain. Nagkaroon din ng time na for every meal either 2 pcs lang ng almond cookie or banana (usually with coffee or swissmiss) ang kinakain ko, etc.

Kadalasan kasi, ang mga taong may eating issues, hindi lang nila kinocontrol ang pagkain nila because they wanna lose weight or whatever, but because yung pagkain lang yung bagay na kaya nila i-control. the more na pumapayat sila, feeling nila invincible sila... Inaamin ko minsan ganun yung nararamdaman ko, pero sakin naman feeling ko nakakaganti ako sa mga tao na nangbibwisit sakin pag nakakapag lose ako ng weight. Basta isang araw, nag decide na lang ako na magpapayat ako and I'll do anything...

I dont want to be thin, hindi ko hinahangad ang 23-inch na tiyan or whatsoever. just that galing na ako doon, ayoko ko nang ma-experience ulit. Pinaghirapan ko kung ano man ako ngayon at gusto ko na i-maintain yun. Siguro minsan sumosobra yung mga ginagawa ko para lang magawa yun, but you know Im really scared of getting fat. Kasi pag naalala ko lang yung dati, argh... masisi niyo ba ako? :(

Ngayon, thank God, 6 months na hindi bumabalik ang aking "vomit period", unstable ang weight, hindi na nakakapag-exercise, im eating more (than my usual) and surprisingly hindi ako tumataba (at least I think). Im super duper happy. Sure, conscious pa rin ako, but Im all good now. :)

haay, ano ba pinaggagagawa ko?

Tuesday, August 05, 2008 •

This is a sudden-outburst-of-feelings kind of crap so pagpasensyhan na lang ang grammar ko and baka burahin ko rin ito. So there..

It’s been weeks since we (me and them) decided to postpone my application. The break gave me the time to reflect and look at some things.

I wanted to join this since I was in high school, I wanna be a lawyer. I’m aware of the process and what happens before and after you get in. I know that it’s a lifetime loyalty and I’m more than willing to commit. I’ve prepared myself physically, mentally, socially and spiritually for this.

I’ve declined invitations from other organizations and when I got theirs, I took the opportunity. Plus the fact that I was lonely, want to meet new people and something to keep me busy. I’ve always wanted them anyway…

So the realizations;

♥ I don’t want to be a lawyer. I can’t study/practice human rights and dehumanize people at the same time.
♥ I don’t need their name the letters, the connections and network. I can/ will do well on my own!
♥ It’s better to be bored and lonely than surrounded by people you barely know.
♥ I want to meet other people, being with them (with the rivalries and all) may well prevent me from doing so
♥ I’m not yet ready for commitments; I have to focus on more important things such as my Acads, fam and friends
♥ I have REAL friends, need I say more?

So kinailangan ko pang ma-experience lahat nang ito para marealize ko ang mga bagay na ito. Anw, I have no intentions na sumali sa iba because sila naman talaga yung gusto ko, its like them or nothing for me. Also, it all boils down to your values, because mas importante pa rin sakin yung trust ng family ko than having loyal brods and sisses. So there I quit and ill take the consequences.