This is a sudden-outburst-of-feelings kind of crap so pagpasensyhan na lang ang grammar ko and baka burahin ko rin ito. So there..

It’s been weeks since we (me and them) decided to postpone my application. The break gave me the time to reflect and look at some things.

I wanted to join this since I was in high school, I wanna be a lawyer. I’m aware of the process and what happens before and after you get in. I know that it’s a lifetime loyalty and I’m more than willing to commit. I’ve prepared myself physically, mentally, socially and spiritually for this.

I’ve declined invitations from other organizations and when I got theirs, I took the opportunity. Plus the fact that I was lonely, want to meet new people and something to keep me busy. I’ve always wanted them anyway…

So the realizations;

♥ I don’t want to be a lawyer. I can’t study/practice human rights and dehumanize people at the same time.
♥ I don’t need their name the letters, the connections and network. I can/ will do well on my own!
♥ It’s better to be bored and lonely than surrounded by people you barely know.
♥ I want to meet other people, being with them (with the rivalries and all) may well prevent me from doing so
♥ I’m not yet ready for commitments; I have to focus on more important things such as my Acads, fam and friends
♥ I have REAL friends, need I say more?