Hey!

THESIS DONE!

2010-04-09T17:19:00.000+08:00

THIS IS HOW WE SPENT THE WEEKEND DATA GATHERING

2010-03-02T19:49:00.004+08:00

my "cat face"

getting things done. then were off to destress ourselves. oohlala

sing along the beach

us with our local partner, Ate Sharon

singing my fave karaoke song, "It's raining men"

island hopping next morning

view from our boat

oooh white sand

This is the life you know...

wonderful sea-nery down there

best THESIS MATES.

this trip started wrong and ended fucked up. but today we discovered a lot. Im sorry chi, I will always be your friend no matter what. Im here for you. We all are

HAHAHAHA proud tan lines.

2010-02-25T21:23:00.004+08:00

Im tiiiired and restless.

going to Makati can be really exhausting, now I understand how my classmate feels (those who live there). Oh well at least I have something to report tmr.

(yaaaaay the org's US/CS! yeeeey to us!)

went to the Mall to relax a bit and scout for a much needed decent phone. I haven't had one since October. fuuuudge. hooray to basic phones! It was a toss between two tops or a new phone. I bought the phone obviously.

Hoping to enjoy another weekend thesis-shiting in Zambales. Anawangin here we come!

PS. they won! they won!

celebration of single awareness

2010-02-20T14:33:00.005+08:00

and yes are AWARE!

dan came to pick me of from my college and then I introduced her to good burger. too bad there were no pictures taken of those damn burgers. were def coming back right Dan?!?? *salivates*

walked around Maginhawa to burn some calories... and get some Froyos.

Another place I discovered with college people

def as yummy as Red Mango but half the friggin price

view outside that cutesy stall

then we went to AS to fetch our girl, Joyce. You know Me and Dannah, we like to goof around

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the terrified student

the Annoyed teacher

HAHAHAHA. either were so full and were trying our best to burn calories OR sugar rush because of Froyos with blueberries we had.

Then went to the mall, did some shoe shopping, watched Valentine's day and there, were fully aware we are SINGLES.

BEACH BIIITCH

2010-02-09T09:36:00.004+08:00

much needed

Our trip to Zambales waaas wreck. whirlwind of disasters i must say. Mommy lost her phone, chia's cam got screwed up hence no underwater shots, we thought our house wasn't safe because of our neighbors, we got there really late, surfer dude's trying to hit on me, etc. but we made them worthwhile and fuuuun experience anyway and we made new friends! were def coming back!

my first interview like 30 mins after we got there

planning everything with our local partner, Ate Sharon

BEAAAAACH!

mame and her bibis

underwater fail

pampering ourselves with natural scrubs. I got really nice finish after

this is how we do our thesis

2010-02-09T09:16:00.004+08:00

late nights at bo's

can be really really kuhh-raay-zeeh!

stress? not really. our tasks on post-its!

i was able to persuade mommy to walk from college to AS

her first time in Lagoon

after finalizing our plans for Zambales

our delish burgers

SOOOOOO EXCITED huh?!

we headed to P&P to have our nails pampered and polished

here's mame getting pedi and nail stamps

eah

us three

YAAAAAAAAY!

2010-01-25T22:11:00.001+08:00

sheeet navel piercing, i think you're hooot. might like to have one of you. i should have not went to see Eah get her tat

photo of the year - '09!!!

2010-01-23T13:34:00.002+08:00

Abbey road meets Roxas Boulevard

the much awaited pictures

2010-01-20T00:29:00.002+08:00

post Christmas picnic @ Sunken Garden

the awesome Manila Trip (walkfest according to them)

toughest two weeks ahead. when all of these are over im gonna enjoy Zambales and beach like kuh-rey-zeh!

well you guys know pics are c/o of my friends. (i don't even have a camera, come on!)

2010-01-04T19:44:00.006+08:00

Christmas Break don't end yet... please!

i have tons of work to do like RRL for our thesis, reporting for UNICEF (for my international org class), KALAHI CIDDS (for programmes and policies class), Planning Process (for Phil. Admin System class) and Adler (for Fil Psych class). exruciately boring right? not to mention nakakatamad plus I still have to deal with groupmates. I always have a hard time working with others gah.

nuff acads.

i hope i utilized my christmas break but I didn't. instead i spent sleeping, shopping (and now im broke!) screen sucking - watching Meteor Garden, 90210, Survivor and Privileged. ughhh not helping.

post Christmas with the Antonio Clan

christmas with my Aunt's dog. aww wish she was mine

Christmas with 1/3 of the Bañacias

I'm still waiting for those manual pictures we had during our trip to Manila (Quiapo-Ongpin-Binondo-Intamuros-Rizal Park-Baywalk) it was so much fuuuun. I fuckingly cannot wait, but it's manual at its a bit pricey and not mine... oh well.

Hell starts tmr. bitch

December, I tried lots of things and I had great time!

2009-12-21T12:06:00.004+08:00

December as we all know is the happiest month. :)) This month may I say, is teh best!

1. Our thesis in Zambales was approved! (meaning we'll be spending weekends of February gathering data in some resort in Anawangin - cool huh?)

2. was assigned a sem more of publicity and promotions work for the org - this time with my anak, Karla.

3. I joined car stuffing - and we won!

4. have been playing duckpin almost everyday with the CDCs - they're getting me ready for my PE class

5. I celebrated my birthday 'till 5am wtf?

got this really weird gifts from my anaks JB and Karla

6. I joined the Jologs quiz! it was so much fun!!! aint jologs enough tho

7. Did Christmas shopping with Dana!

8. Had a really foul but fun name for our team during the org's christmas party

9. class dissolved and transfered to another a month after the start of the sem

10. fell down from teh stairs and had an excuse to cut class

my college's annual christmas lunch

production works

11. enlisted myself as one of the dancers for teh lantern parade

danced 'till i dropped

there are still so many things to do. HAHAHAHA have fun guys! Happy Holidays!

more than a month's worth

2009-11-19T19:21:00.008+08:00

been verrrry busy! I almost died last month (figuratively, of course!)

after the typhoon Ondoy, hurricane of requirements naman ang dumating. WTF?

first week of October

busy doing the training design for our GST, final exams on oneSICKfive.

celebrated orgmates' birthdays the beerdeoke way.

2nd week of october

toxic requirements flooded.

Finally were able to attend the second mixer yaaay!

family get together @ my niece's birthday

3rd week of October - I died.

these are pictures from the Gender Sensitivity Training we held at a public HS in Cubao.

pose to forget all the worries and anxities

krunch time!

finally it's doneeee!

aside from the training i also had to attend cotillion practice for my cousin's debut, conduct surveys for my statistics requirements, review for finals, etc.

wasn't able to get decent sleep for the next three days.

we had a little (but quite wild) party to celebrate stuff lasted 'till 8am. wtf?

went to school around 9am to meet my stat group mates then headed to my cousin's debut in Tanay, Rizal - again i wasnt able to sleep.

oh cotillion fail

I headed to my friend's house in Katipunan right after the ceremonies (around 2am) to finish the fucking paper for stat.

then at 1pm we went to Montalban, Rizal to fulfill duties for onetwoSICKS. back in Katipunan around 8pm to finish the paper, pulled an all nighter only to find out were supposed to do this another paper for onetwoSICKS. finished everything at around 11am - 2 days after HAHAHA

4th week of October

much awaited sembreak - which I spent sleeping

went to Diday's house

and then we headed to SM to watch 500 days of summer - which we didn't really like

1st week of November

registration week. I also discovered FA's siomai!

org's final rights

swimming!

another orgmate's birthday celeb

i got my hair chopped. :))

and that's it!

2009-11-08T20:05:00.003+08:00

uncertainty is irritating.

and tiring too!

I'm giving up, not because i'm irritated nor tired - cos you know i can always pause and rest for a while... In case you didn't know i hoped for you. I thought we had it but apparently I was wrong.

2009-09-23T20:05:00.003+08:00

I’m enjoying college life so much! Have I known that college is this good, then I’d prolly skipped elementary and high school lol. Kidding aside, I’m really happy with how things are going lately. I may not have a good sleep for almost two months now and my grades are not that well as they were last year, buut I have a great great bunch of people with me and im having the time of my life!!!

If dinners with you guys every night will make my pockets empty, then im willing to go broke. Seriously. You people make shawarma, peanuts, sharks fin, isaw, chicken skin, etc., yummier and are definitely better consumed with you all.

It always nice to have a great company after a really stressful day, thank you guys!

Okay back to work. Fudge. Tomorrow is another night.

sweet and sudden escape

2009-08-30T14:02:00.005+08:00

no classes in qc so we decided to take a trip to lb. i wasn't really sure if ill pursue this trip since i have midterms on PA the next day. buut I did anyway!

off to los baños! Everyones excited, some came from lb while some haven't seen the campus

short stop in Calamba

for a hearty and sumptious breakfast!

YAAAY YAAAAY time to go to LB!!!

they decided to chill at SU first, were supposed to play bowling, but they didnt allow us because were not on appropriate footwear, so we rented this billiard table instead.

oh Humanities building, i missed you. students painting

walking like I used to...

it was friggin' hot in lb, that kind that penetrates your skin plus we didnt have anywhere to go to.

so we decided to leave the campus for a while and go somewhere else

los baños means "the baths" afterall. we went to this nearby falls and spent our aftenoon swimming, drinking, chatting, laughing. whilst me studied for my midterms, boo!

we had our dinner at the famous ellen's where all the big mosquitos are partying bitting diners. Then we hit Kambingan, everyone agreed that this is the cheapest inuman place weve been to. lots of joking and teasing happened.

we then decided to move to square since were all in the 'singing mood' and to drink some moooore

my time to shine, I sang my favorite karaoke song; Top of the World. good thing my friends are at the frontrow table, in case anyone throw tomatoes on me. ha ha

the place closed at around 1 am, we have nowhere to go to so we were like street kids roaming around. we sat almost everywhere, you name it we rested our butts on it! then we decided to have an early breakfast/late midnight snack at 2am. went to my cousin's former boarding house, climbed the friggin gate and took a shower.

and the long day ended. about 4am, while waiting for our bus to Manila

aww super fuuun!

how we handle heavy schoolworkssss

2009-08-12T02:14:00.005+08:00

after a really stressful day...

1. go to the nearest hangout place - eat, drink (juice in my case), talk nonstop and laugh

2. then you guys realized you really need to get away from school and all those shit, so you go and seek for more.

3. enjoy great company of great friends

4. play the infamous yosi game.

5. let the exitement of possibly drinking this pulpy beer forget all your worries.

Two weeks 'till the end of August,... two weeks 'till hell is over.

Tough Month ahead

2009-07-23T00:24:00.010+08:00

head and heart - verrry heavy :((

Week 1
July 24 - probably the last Fri(FREE)day for us - hello Organizing and Statistics requirements! + friends' soro open party after classes
July 26 - friends' soro activity in the morning + drinks/picnic with friends (they're asking me to bring my mom's special spicy chicken - not sure if i'll be able to that guys!) + then we'll head to our college's activity - prolly 'till night time?
July 27 - another soro activity (out of town) in the morning - not sure if im going + SONA - very sure that im not going + go to some Gender Office in Teacher's village to gather information on our report.

Week 2
July 28 - Happy Birthday Jods! + film viewing for Community Planning + Org's General Assembly - have to arrange my org bud's sched with the mems.
July 29 - Report on Women and Gender Issues
July 30 - Deadline book review on Gender and Close Relationships

Week 3
August 4 - Deadline reflection paper on the film
August 6 - Deadline 10 pages report draft! - now this is what you call TOXIC!
August 7 & 8 - Exposure Trip - out of town activity
* field students will arrive - so expect a lot of Sarah's bonding!

Week 4
August 11 - Midterms on Planning
August 13 - The TOXIC report on Prostitution and Trafficking of Women
August 14 - The Time Traveler's wife premiere

Week 5
August 19 - no classes buuut were planning to spend a night in LB - yes UP Los Banos!
August 20 - ACLE - tie up with my friends' soro
August 21 - no classes
August 24 - Happy Birthday Ava!
* will arrange our red box dreams!

PLUS PLUS:
1. Render 20 hours of service in the church for my ethics class
2. Arrange meetings with my org buddy
3. Plan Formulation Report on a Rural Community - arrange with a PO and go to a Rural Community
4. Gown fittings and rehearsals for my cousin's wedding that is on the first week of September
5. more requirements to follow. fuck that!

2009-07-04T23:01:00.000+08:00

Wearing my heart on my sleeve...

the luxury of sleep

2009-07-03T21:09:00.003+08:00

It's only the third week of school and im sick, tired and sleepy, etc.

that's my CD best friend - trying to grab some sleep - zzzz

snap shot of me sleeping

blame facebook, sarah's, tambay for munching my time - tho of course enjoy naman ako,.. dumadating na lang ang school works,.. ugh!

whoo loser bitch, it's a friday night and im here at home. feck. were supposed to attend this black menthol launch buuuut guest listings failed us - shoo! bye tugsh hello school stuff.

2009-06-26T18:23:00.000+08:00

needs anger management, like seriously. ;[

sorry,...

all in two weeks

2009-06-21T22:43:00.010+08:00

highlights?

Saturday - June 13
Our last night at Intramuros, umuwi na ang aming partner agency sa CDO. Muntik na akong di payagan ni mother dahil last time I went there ay 1am na ako nakauwi.

the infamous wall @ Intra

My team (my groupmates) is now the official youth partner of the social enterprise. Yeeey! looking forward to our future activities and also we might fly to CDO after this sem.

I had fun this summer, hindi ko man na-fulfill ang aking breams (bikini/beach dreams), napagod sa mga ginagawa namin at minsan ay nadisappoint naman sa ilang mga tao - ngayong summer lang talaga ako hindi naging bum. Naramdaman ko na may growth sa akin at ang dami kong natutunan at nagawa.

Friday - June 5

And for my beloved org - CDC

I was very active and busy with org activities - help booth during the registration period - for promotions lol!

Super fun and exciting this year - because my cousin che is now part of my college family. So this week medyo nag bond talaga kami at sinamahan ko siya with the registration stuff and naging friends ko na rin ang ilan niyang friends.

habang ang buong UP ay nagwawala dahil sa tornado, kami ay nagshu-shoot ng aming video for our promotions.

Tuesday - Wednesday - June 16-17

First day of classes, after our first GA (General Assembly) nagpunta kami sa Matalino to drink, chat and the likes,.. then we went to Karli's house para ayusin ang loot bags, publicity materials and more chikahan. Azaar na naman si mother dahil umaga na naman ako umuwi.

new students playing human bingo!

our booth!

Thursday - June 18
After ng aming song practice, uwi sana ako kagad para naman hindi masyadong magalit ang aking mother 'till dumaan ako kila Che and andun ang kanyang friends. chibog at her house then we went to Sarah's and bonding with her friends.

Friday - June 19
Cultural Night - we did a song number for the college

registration booth

doing charades - our fave pampalipas ng oras - and I sure suck at it

singing

Sarah's after - of course. the field students are leaving this friday, so nilulubos lubos na namin ang ilang araw na kasama sila.

my CD best friend - nagmamakaawa na uminom ako

the best inuman game ever!
ps; i STILL dont drink! lol

Saturday - June 20
our first major activity - First Aid Training!

doing the CPR - tilt, pinch, blow,...

so there, probably magiging busy na naman ako dahil recruitment period na at ngayon pa lang ay tadtad na kami with Acad stuff - kailangan ko ng maghanap ng mga articles, books for our report on prostitution and organizing. ill keep you guys updated! :)

2009-05-19T20:39:00.006+08:00

hello there neglected blog!

i was away and busy,... doing other things.

school kept me busy, having two subjects this summer - STS and 125 (major). STS, the most boring and nakakatamad subject ever, ended today with an exam. My major, Communications for Development on the other hand is lalalove! Although the subject is quite demanding; doing workshops, learning about communication strategies, burning neurons, working with a partner NGO (just like a real CD professional!), etc. this subject also made me use my potentials; working on a team (with friends and ughh freeloaders), and a social enterprise - coming up problem and objective trees, doing SWOT Analysis and coming up with specific strategies, planning and going to places, establishing connections, doing promotions and endorsements, etc. WAAAH!

HA ANO?

we are currently working with a social enterprise based in Mindanao, well basically they seek to connect the young and hip urban kids (their target market) with the disadvantaged young artisans (the producers of the product) of Mindanao through,... fashion accessories! they make accessories out of terracotta clays and semi-precious stones, patterned with indigenous colors and designs.

they seek to penetrate a wider market (dominated by the current trading system which is mass production - yaay so CD!) where their work (since they are guided by the principles of Fair Trade) can be sold with amount that would equal to their work. arghh cant say much!

SO WHAT DO WE DO?

Next week, the artisans will go here (Manila) to join this event funded by some government agency; they seek not only to promote their work, but the cause of FT as well. So what we are trying to do, is get students from nearby schools to go attend this event, get to know the artisans, learn about about Fair Trade, appreciate and hopefully support the products FT.

So tomorrow were going to Manila, forward letters to the school administrators, conduct orientation and IDK but sounds like FUN FUN FUN!!! So guys, if you wanna learn more about the enterprise, or just what the hell am i doing, leave a msg. k? :))

GALIT NA GALIT NAAAAA...!!!

Kapag ganito, may karapatan na akong magalit diba? siguro mas nakapag-focus sana ako sa iba kong subjects kung hindi ka nagdemand ng 10 papers (every 2 weeks) mula sa class namin. Kung mag bigay ka nag deadline batas, kung magbigay ka ng readings, parang wala ng bukas, kung magbigay ka ng grades, umiiyak na ako... tapos ngayon wala pa rin?

So, what do I look like...

2009-04-09T20:39:00.006+08:00

last year - Aunt Jen introduced me to her hubby (German)

Aunt Jen: Reinoll, this is Kaye my niece
R (to me): oh hello
R (to AJ): is she a Filipina - she seems Indian...
K: err yes...
AJ: she is! she's my niece!

yesterday - with my uncle (beardface - works abroad)

uncle: iba itsura ni Kaye
K: ha?
uncle: mukang bumbay
K: :))
uncle: kapag kasama kita baka mapagkamalan tayong mag-ama

facebook chat with my classmate (half American) - a while ago

classmate: hahaha bumbay ka ;);)
K: i look like bumbay DAW!
classmate: o'o nga :P:P
K: talaga?
classmate: no i'm just joking. you look igurot naman eh ;);)
me: effer and u look like a chicken
classmate: lol yup a very delicious and tasty genetically modified chicken :P:P
K: yuck,.. def not tasty. kadiri!
classmate: who said you look bumbay?
K: my aunt's hubby - German,... and other people
classmate: are you serious, thats funny
K: yess...
classmate: you don't, but you don't really look pinay either
K: tinanong nya pa yung aunt ko kung filipina ako
classmate: ahaha because you look south american or something
K: err okay another *insert classmate's name* joke
classmate: for real you don't look pinay, siguro thats the equivalant lol
K: HAHAHA

while my cousin's boyf insists na i look like Nikki G. okaaay... rofl :))

2009-03-23T09:48:00.007+08:00

Hello hello, I just back from Pangasinan and naisip ko lang i-share ang aking Geo experience.

Nagsimula kasi dahil yung classmate ko was able to capture yung image ng diwata dun sa camera niya. Kaya yung iba nag freak out, may na – curious, etc… the farm owner confirmed na diwata nga yun, and she was playing daw with us nung fire dance activity namin. So dahil lahat naman yata ng tao ay interested sa paranormal stuff, ayun we talked about calling your guardian angel, spirits, UFOs, soul mates, being in two places at once, etc.

After the lecture, me and the girls, hindi namin na-contain ang mga sarili namin and nag-consult kami kay sir ng mga paranormal issues namin, and nagulat kami kung gaano ka-accurate ang mga alam niya sa amin just by reading our auras; on Mommy Pau – self-inflicted pain and doesn’t trust herself, chi – must burn bridges, eah – player haha!, tin – must learn to let go of certain things.

On my aura;

- well nagtanong ako about my sort of ability to perceive things before sila mangyari, katulad ng if I wish/ask for something (small things lang naman), nakukuha sila. Medyo matagal ko na kasi na-eexperience yun,

- ang sabi sa akin ni Sir, well I have good karma lang daw. Because of my personality that’s why I attract good vibes. And I shouldn’t limit myself to small things (dream big na!), I’m the child of the universe and should do everything that makes me happy.

The next day, nagkaroon naman kami ng health/palm reading. Well I had mine read in front of everyone… lol.

- Lacks vitamins and minerals – shouldn't diet too much, irregular menstruation, there’s something in my kidney or liver, idrk?

- I’m very malambing and am looking for love - ROFL!

- Not very practical (chi; Kaaaaye, sooo YOU!)

- I trust people/friends too much but I get disappointed easily

- I have friends na I shouldn’t consider – FRIENDS

so there you go, gusto pa sana namin mag-ask ng marami pang mga issues namin kaso dahil super dami namin, hindi ma-concentrate ang mga bagay bagay. gusto rin namin itanong yung tungkol sa past lives namin, pero sabi ni Sir, may mga bagay na hindi na dapat malaman kung hindi naman kailangan. oh well...

2009-03-07T18:11:00.004+08:00

Since nagsimula yung 2009 naging masyadong heavy (academically) ang buhay ko. There are lots of things to do, hindi ko ma-express kung gaano siya kabigat – all I can say is ito na ang pinaka mahirap na semester ko sa UP. Nag-aaral naman ako ng mabuti, never na pinabayaan ko ang studies ko, pero nahihirapan ako na hindi nare-reciprocate yung efforts ko. Minsan gusto ko na talaga mag snap and give-up (drop the fucking subject) pero hindi ko kayang gawin – as much as possible ayokong magsayang ng kahit na ano. pero minsan talaga both the mind and the body - hindi talaga willing mag-function and they’ll ask for a break.

So the usual thing I do is I go out with friends to unwind - clean o dirty fun pa yan. Nag-eenjoy talaga ako na kasama sila and hindi ko maimagine yung sarili ko ngayong sem na to na wala sila. THANK YOU GUYS!

fair night

the whole gang

A is for ASTIG

2009-02-21T22:39:00.003+08:00

10 WHAT’S

1. What was the first thing you thought about when you woke up?
- the time

2. What did you do last night?
- dinner with the ASTIG boys and dans. then Markus and I went to AS to meet up with his brods. Went to club industry after to meet up with the bitses, but we didnt like the crowd so we transfered to Esqui.

3. What is the most important part of your life?

4. What would you rather be doing right now?
- go to Astig's meeting

5. What did you last cry over?
- cant remember

6. What always makes you feel better when you’re upset?
- a feel good movie never fails

8. What’s the most important thing you look for in a boyfriend/girlfriend?
- idk

9. What are you worried about?
acads stuff

10. What are you looking forward to most in this week?
Puerto Galera!

NINE HAVE YOU’S:
1. Have you ever liked someone while you had a girlfriend/boyfriend?
–

2. Have you ever had your heart broken?
- i think? IDRK.

4. Have you ever been out?
out what?

5. Have you ever done something outrageously dumb?
yess. so many that i don't even remember!

6. Have you ever been back stabbed by a friend?
yeas!

7. Have you ever had the cops called on you?
nopey

8. Have you ever dated someone younger than you?
–

9. Have you ever read an entire book in one day?
sure.

EIGHT WHO’S:
1. Who was the last person you saw?
aside from my fam, Mike

2. Who was the last person you kissed?
muds

3. Who was the last person you texted?
Eah

4. Who was the last person to call you?
Yang using Markus' phone

5. Who was your first crush?
yung guy from baywatch!

6. Who is the last person who texted you?
Sheen

7.Who is the last person you freaked out on?
drunk Markus - reciting Our Father in Latin

8. Who did you last hug?
Eah

SEVEN WHEN’S:
1. When was your last shower?
kanina

2. When did you last see your mom?
3 secs ago

3. When was your last time you saw your dad?
2 secs ago

4. When did you last dress up?
last night for the TUGSH

5. When was the last time you cried?
cant remember

6. When did you last go to the movies and with who?
around Aug, with muds

7. When did you last listen to music?
last night - Mike's car

SIX WHERE’S:
1. Where does your best friend live?
Bliss

2. Where did you last go?
Esqui

3. Where did you last hang out?
Esqui with the Bitses

4. Where is your school?
Diliman

5. Where is your favorite place to be?
college tambayan

6. Where did you sleep last night?
my bed

FIVE DO’S/DOES:
1. Do you like someone right now?
slight

2. Do they like you too?
idk. i hope

3. Do you ever wish you were someone else?
no

4. Do you know the muffin man?
muffin who?

5. Does the future scare you?
not really

FOUR WHY’S:
1. Why are you best friends with your best friend?
IDK, are we still...?

2. Why did you get a friendster profile?
wala lang

3. Why did your parents give you the name you have?
long story

4. Why are you doing this survey?
sick of acads

THREE IF’S:
1. If you could have one superpower, what would it be?
teleportation

2. If you could go back in time and change one thing, would you?
maybe.

3. If you were stranded on a deserted island and could bring one thing what/who would it be?
computer!

TWO WOULD-YOU-EVER’S:
1. Would you ever get back together with any of your ex’s if they asked you?
–

2. Would you ever shave your head to save someone you love?
pano yun?

ONE LAST QUESTION:
1. Are you happy with your life right now?
SUPER!

2009-02-18T23:54:00.006+08:00

ARGHHHH. School is keeping me busy.

Naalala ko nung campus tour sa lb; may nagsabi na hindi mo daw pwede pag sabay-sabayin ang 3 bagay ito.

1. good grades
2. social life
3. good sleep

my grades are good - i'm actually attending this CS recognition thing on friday. Yeey! pero this sem, i dont really know... papers. immersions. reflections. write-ins. field trips. exams. reports. research, and so much more. i always get that feeling na kulang yung 24 hours a day, kasi ang dami talagang dapat aralin and gawin. minsan hindi ko na talaga kaya, gusto ko na bumigay pero hindi pwede. :(( Demanding profs. demanding subjects - waaaah!

social life - boom boom boom! (need i say more?). thankful talaga ako na part ako ng CDC family, the BITSES and college people. kung meron mang dahilan at naglulook forward ako na pumasok sa school ay sila yun. who needs a soro when you have these girls... love love my bitses!

sleep - 4 hours a day? so there - kailangan ko na matulog. friggin 7am class tmr. ZZzzzzz...

coping with stress

2009-01-05T02:30:00.003+08:00

hello people! its almost 3am and tomorrow magsisimula na naman ang klase - ibig sabihin, dapat tapusin na ang requirements na hindi matapos tapos. Sinumulan ko ng maaga yung paggawa ng outline para sa write-in paper for PA, inanticipate ko kasi na mahirap and matagal sya gawin - tama nga! I'm just waiting for my friend, Pau to finish his readings and... we'll survive this paper together.

Magastos ang pag de-stress, ngayon pa lang ubos na ang pera ko. :( Na-try ko na ata kasi lahat... kanina lang lumabas kami ni Mudra - kahit sya pagod na rin. Anw, malapit na ang mid-sem, for sure bubuhos na naman ang requirements at pinaplano kong pumunta sa flawless or face it, niyaya ko si Che pero mukang busy na sya by then - soooo sino may gusto - TARAAAA!

2008-12-29T23:11:00.003+08:00

Ginu-gle (googled) ko ang pangalan ko kagabi, at nakita ko ito.

That jeepney reminds me of something

whatever jeepney i ride within the campus, it never fails to remind me of one place i have been missing most- my kindergarten school (Christian Child Care Learning Center). i get so nostalgic everytime i pass my old playground where i used to hang on monkey bars and swing as high as i could. wish i could bring back the old times. *sighs* i remember that weird-shaped church where we had our graduation. i was so innocent back then. i even just realized that my school was within up campus during the first days of my freshman year. i'm really stupid, i know. but you can't blame me. i'm just a small kid before and i haven't had much of a photographic memory to remember everything.
during that 5-second passing in the vivinity of my kindergarten, i imagine black-and-white images from my childhood flashing back to me. i remember my math lessons where i used to sit right beside my gay friend. we used to sit on the floor where a lot of masking tape was stuck on the floor. even when i was a child, i found it peculiar to see such strips of sticcky things on the floor. my gay friend, due to some sheer luck, is already one of my friendster acquaintances. haha. odd and sweet.=)
just this sememster, i happened to meet my old bestfriend again in a very fashionable way. i was riding the ikot jeep that afternoon, and it happened that i was bragging (yet again) that my kindergarten school stands inside up. and one girl started talking to me out of the blue, asking if am honey. (no one uses that nickname besides my kindergarten classmates and my family) and so i was surprised. it was kaye! it was my old best friend! she's studying at upis at the moment. and she would be studyingat uplb for college. funny how destiny works.=)
how could i forget our white shirt and pink shorts uniform? and my first enemy of all time! KIMBERLY! haha. i could remember how we made up our own girl gangs and threw each other endless teases. hahaha. and oh! how caould i forget my ever-pacute pose in our first class picture. seeing that picture makes me want to vomit all of the sudden.=p
i remember everything like it was yesterday. my mom fetched me after classes and we rode the same philcoa jeepneys roaming about the up campus today. i never had the chance to meet jolibee when i was a child and so my mom used to treat me in the typical turo-turo restaurant where i happily ate dinuguan and pusit. hahaha. i'm so happy thinking about these thoughts.=)
fun.fun.fun.
time really flies so fast. one time i was riding the see saw and all of the sudden, i was lining up for one semester worth of enrolment.
i would have given anything, just anything, to be able to experience being a child again. carefree. happy. and innocent.
sweet life it is. it only allows such experiences once in a lifetime. we should really enjoy everything when we still have it. because our life neither dwells in the past nor the future. life is the moment we are living now. enjoy.
goodbye memories. hello today.

sinulat ng aking kindergarten bestfriend. Nasgsulat na rin yata ako dati tungkol sa incident na ito, pero natuwa talaga ako dito sa sinulat niya. :)

source: Honey's blog

sweet escape

2008-12-28T16:37:00.004+08:00

2008-12-22T19:01:00.006+08:00

Yaaay. love loove my new red flats!

I was at the mall yesterday with no intentions of buying anything... 'till i saw this cute red ballet flats.

sooo I ended up buying a pair of flats, black clutch, and some clothes. Hey, I'm also just a girl who needs to satisfy her fashion cravings! cant wait to wear them.

I'm thinking...

Geesh! I should be saving money. dang!

living the hermit life (again!)

2008-12-22T14:04:00.006+08:00

Me: Sis guess what… I went to this frat party and 4-5 guys yata ang nag-approach sakin.
Dan: OMG. I’m sooo happy! Kwentoooo!

Since our LB days, Si Dan na ang greatest fan ng aking 'lovelife' if there's any. Kasama ko siya na nag-aabang kay Judas (codename) na dumaan sa Hum bldg., encouraged me to join speed dating, hinahanapan niya ako ng theme songs, nagsulat pa siya ng poem about me and Judas, and lahat yata ng guys na nakikilala ko alam niya. So hindi talaga pwedeng ma-miss niya ang juice ng aking party with the guys.

So I went to this drinking party with my college friends. Since hindi naman ako umiinom, pumunta lang ako to bond with them and hopefully to meet guys, and I did. but...

Sure I met guys, exchanged cell nos and multiply id’s with them.My college friends keep teasing me na ang dami ko daw catch that night, when the truth is wala naman talaga. Walang connection, spark o whatever man yung nakikita sa movies kapag may nakikilala ka, undeniably zero in that department. Most of the time, lull and boring conversations and to keep things going, we had to take pictures or mag-asaran.

I want a conversationalist not a bag of talkshit, walk me home and not text me when you need someone to talk to, memories not pictures. I want a lover and not a petting buddy. I know I'm asking too much and my expectations are too high,... Nangyayari at dumadating na lang yan, just that those guys... are definitely not for me. Naaay.

Dan: awww... can't wait na magkaron ka ng love life sis.

Oh well, Happy Christmas People!

gimme a break

2008-12-07T18:53:00.004+08:00

what I wore - hihi

Hello People! yes yes nag-celebrate lang ako ng aking 19th birthday nung isang araw. Well I'm very very happy na sinelebrate ko ito kasama kayo, (thinking na ang mga nagbabasa lang naman nito ay mga close friends) ang mga special na tao sa buhay ko. yaay! I think mas enjoy ngayon than last year, siguro kasi mas okay na ang situations ng mga bagay bagay and wala na masyadong worries and problems. (except for that friggin PA paper - sucks!) everything is falling into place siguro - Happy!

naisip ko lang, kasi i hang out with people older than me and napansin ko na masyadong nagiging issue ang age. For me, kung sa pagtanda mo ay nag-gogrow ka at may natunan e di hindi naman dapat ikahiya yun, diba? sabi nga nila "growing old is inevitable, growing up is optional".

Anyway, dahil magangmaga na ang mata at utak ko dahil sa bwisit na PA paper na yan, niyaya ako ni Mudra na i-treat ng ice cream. Dahil halos birthday ko pa rin naman, kinapalan ko na ang mukha ko at nagyaya sa Five Cows in Trinoma. Matagal tagal na ko na rin naman gusting i-try yung Belgian Chocolate Mint nila.

pricey. disappointed. Nag DQ na lang sana ako. :(

the moment I fell in love...

2008-11-15T21:51:00.002+08:00

Matagal-tagal na rin akong naghahanap ng "perfect" pair ng basic black flats, yung casual shoes na pwede i-pair sa jeans/shorts o kaya sa mini dress. So anyway, nang ako'y namamasyal sa mall kanina ay kinilig talaga ako ng nakita ko ito. simple, elegant and fierce! yaaay! shame na 300 pesos lang ang pera ko.

MURTLE Chunky Glitter Pump - TOPSHOP

baby pumps, wait for me, wag ka ma-out of stock. promise bibilhin kita and that pair from charles and keith. So many things to buy, ngayon pa lang pulubi na ako ;((

what ive been doing lately

2008-11-02T20:52:00.001+08:00

bago matapos ang sembreak ay natagpuan ko ang aking hobby/talent. o diba diba?! Ang pagpuputol ng mga lumang pantalon! Ang dami ko kasing mga pantalon sa kwarto na hindi ginagamit at kailangan ko ng shorts dahil sa panahon ngayon na sobrang init, suicide ang pagsuot ng pantalon. Tsaka instead na gumastos ako para sa mga bagong pantalon/shorts/skirts, bibili na lang ako ng mga sapatos no?! lah. ha ha

1.) dark blue flared jeans from mavi jeans 2. ) light blue jeans from mossimo

after

with little creativity and imagination ang dami na talagang nagbago sa jeans ko. btw, handsewn nga lang pala ito, so medyo hindi pantay yung stitches at wala akong enough sewing gadgets. So ito yung ilang details sa nilagay ko sa aking mga shorts.

So there, excited na ako kasi may 4 pending pants pa ako na dapat ayusin, naghahanap lang ako ng magagandang threads and buttons na ilalagay sa kanila. And nakatanggap lang ako kahapon ng around 5 pairs ng jeans, levi's shorts and skirt - lahat yun aayusin ko pa and iisipin ko pa kung ano ang gagawin sa kanila. Yaaay! - Little J iz dat chu?

what ive been watching...

2008-10-24T00:45:00.002+08:00

Koizora - According to my research, this movie made over 11 million people cry (that includes me!) simple and typical love story; shy girl meets arrogant guy - went gaga over one another. Of course they had to experience endless amount of hardships just to prove that love conquers all. Nag cater din sila sa teen issues such as sex, pregnancy, bullies, illness (oops spoilers!) etc. from the scenery to the acting and music, ang galing talaga! A bit unrealistic although based daw ito sa story ng author - hell I care. two thumbs up! I definitely recommend this movie to everyone - MUST WATCH (Ava - watch this movie!)

A Millionaire's first love - Another tear jerker! rich-city guy is about to inherit his grandpa's wealth, but may mga conditions sa will. So he went to this little town and there he met this poor-province girl. Another typical love story, might be boring at first but after ng ilang twists, ay hindi mo na talaga tatantanan. shows the value of true love. if you guys enjoyed A walk to remember, then i strongly recommend this movie. yaaay to love capsule!

Amazing race asia 3 - the only show that gets your adrenaline pumpin'. Is it just me or mas mahirap talaga ang mga challenges nila this season? oh well, I'm rooting for team Pinas!

Survivor Gabon - OMG. the contestants definitely know how to play the dirty game of survivor - at least the people from Kota tribe. the drool worthy Marcus is using his charms to make Charlie go gay-ga over him. heehee!

America's next top model 11 - the usual ANTM, but this season may gay and lesbo na models.
oooh.

other movies and shows na napanuod ko;

The Love of Siam
Do Re Mi Fa So La Ti Do
The Skulls II
A Moment to Remember
100 days with Mr. Arrogant
Love Phobia
90210
Privileged

I have a long list of strongly recommended movies and shows but I'm not really a good writer; hence I cant write a decent review.

2008-10-05T13:46:00.001+08:00

hello world!

naalala ko dati hesitant akong umalis ng LB, ayoko na talagang umalis actually. I was afraid that i might not make friends and mawala yung mga LB friends ko. Pero hindi, ngayon ko lang na-realize na everything's falling into place for me. I can't believe that im here , making new friends and at the same time strong pa rin yung relationship ko sa iba ko pang mga kaibigan. hindi ko man sila kasama ng madalas, but if they need me, I'll always find time. :)

gone are the lonely and boring days of Kaye. It all started in Calatagan, nakilala ko talaga ang mga course mates ko, plus more than half ng class namin ay sumali sa org. So there, saya! Imagine once a week lang ang class namin, pero yung closeness namin iba. Sabi nga nila, ang college namin ay parang lb, maliit-masaya-pamilya. Ngayon, lahat kami ay nag-kaisa na kumuha ng parehong majors next sem and some people ay kukuha ng minors na kukunin ko. Sooo yeeey! bye GEs, hello majors!

playing hep hep hooray - ako daw ang pinakawild

jumpee jumpee
walkway

:)

FOOD!

kainan na!

2008-09-19T21:47:00.002+08:00

Kaye, nanigarilyo ka ba?

One thing I noticed about my college is that halos lahat nagso-smoke. Like 4 out of 5 students do it on a daily basis, some even finish 2 packs (40 sticks) a day. Just imagine the amount of nicotine sa mga sistema nila. Geesh.

So anyway, medyo nabo-bother ako dahil sila ang makakasama ko throughout my college life. Naalala ko yung kinwento sakin ni Mama, noong college daw siya ay natuto siya dahil lahat ng friends niya ginagawa yun. she warned me na hindi ko dapat i-try. I never want to, kaya dapat talaga maging firm ako in saying no to cigs and to my buddies. Eto pa, hindi man ako mahawa sa kanila, kamusta naman ang second-hand smoke?

(Habang nakatambay kami sa college steps kahapon)
Girl bud: wanna try? (nag-offer ng cig niya) BI e no?
Me: no thanks, nakakataba yan pag nag-quit. Ayoko nga tumaba di ba?
Boy bud: ha ha nakakapayat kaya ito, hindi ka na makaka-kain…
Me: e bakit ang taba mo?
Boy bud: *laughs*

Wag, ka magpapadala sa peer pressure ha, wag mong i-try!

Salamat sa mga nag-aalala kong groupmates sakin, at least diba may ilan pa naman na hindi gumagawa nun. Say no to Cigs!

huwag hukayin ang Bgy Hukay!

2008-09-17T18:41:00.001+08:00

(warning; long picture post!)

Noong nakaraang sabado at linggo ay nagkaroon kami ng immersion / field exposure sa Calatagan, Batangas. Masasabi ko na isa ito o kung hindi man ang pinaka-masaya, enlightening na trip na nagawa ko sa buong buhay ko. Nagawa kong isantabi ang aking mga personal na problema at buksan ang aking isipan upang maging malay sa problema ng ibang tao at komunidad. Bukod dito ay nakilala ko ng lubusan ang ilan sa aking mga kamag-aral at masasabi ko na naging kaibigan ko sila dahil dito.

In short, holy macaroni! sulit ang trip na ito, I love CD!

Ang pangunahing ikinabubuhay ng mga naninirahan sa Bgy. Hukay sa Calatagan ay ang pagtatanim / pagsasaka sa kabundukan at ang pangingisda sa may dagat. Ngunit dahil nakakapasok ang mga malalaking barko sa kanilang pampang ay nauubusan sila ng ikinabubuhay sa dagat. Kaya umaasa na lamang sila sa kanilang mga pananim bilang pagkakakitaan. Ang kinikita nila dito ay hindi na nga sapat para matugunan ang kanilang pangangailangan ay naka-amba pang kunin sa kanila.

Ito ay dahil inangkin ng panginoong may-lupa ang mga bundok na pinagtataniman nila at miminahin para kunin ang mga apog (limestone) na naka-imbak dito. Sinasabi na ang minahan ay magbibigay ng trabaho para sa mga taga Bgy. Hukay, pero pano na lang kung wala ng makuhang apog sa mga bundok na ito?Tapos na rin ba ang buhay para sa kanila, ano na lamang ang epekto nito sa kanilang hanap buhay at kalusugan?

Ang sakit isipin na isang araw ay bigla na lang may mga taong kukunin ang tanging ikinabubuhay mo at iiwanan ka pa ng tiyak na pabigat sa iyong buhay. Nagpapasalamat naman ako at natutuwa dahil kahit ganito ang sitwasyon ay handa sila na makipaglaban para sa kanilang karapatan sa lupa, lalong lalo na ang mga kabataan (ages 13-20). Umaasa ako huwag matalo sa labang ito ang mga taga Bgy. Hukay at asahan ninyo na andito kami na sumusuporta sa labang ito.

(most pictures are from my CD classmates. thanks!)

with my classmates sa forum sa Balayan, Batangas

bored. so naglaro muna kami ng kung anu-anong games. look, I won!

sa aming 'headquarters'. nang dumating na kami sa Calatagan. around 6pm

girls sa beach

next morning. mala- New Zealand na bundok na miminahin for limestones.

lahat kami excited, ang ganda ganda kasi diba?

fun in the sun with my family

Oh noes. 4-hour na paglalakad sa maputik, mabato at madulas na bundok. marami ang nasirang havaianas dahil dito.

breathtaking.

yaay. tired pero masaya!

with our host family plus mga kabataan sa aming bahay

2008-08-31T21:30:00.000+08:00

Today I went swimming with my fellow UPIS alumna and family friend, ate Nikki.

Yaay! I love swimming and it’s definitely the best sport ever. Why??? Swimming is a very very good way to lose weight and tone your muscles. I used to swim twice a week last sem, and i think my body’s pretty much toned (except sa legs ko na mukha daw pata sabi ng kuya ko). Ha ha! You also get the opportunity to see hot guys in Speedo trunks. Double ha ha! Actually may pa-cute guy na daan ng daan sa harap namin, tho cute siya kebs lang kami ni ate. Nakabantay kasi parents namin, sayang! Triple ha ha!

So after that, we had our lunch at chowking. I ate a bowl of yummy lomi, just the best food to fill my hungry tummy. :) Ang dami kong kinakain lately and im happy bout that, yun nga lang dapat magsimula na ulit ako mag jogging. Yay to a healthier kaye!

Fortunately for you guys walang pictures! Quadruple ha ha!

2008-08-25T19:17:00.001+08:00

grabe dugong dugo na utak ko kakasulat ng papers na imu-murder ng mga Prof na nagfi-feeling major, GE lang naman. i need a break, i need a kitkat. kidding aside, pagod na talaga ako. ayoko naman matapos ang sem, gusto ko lang matapos na ang lahat ng requirements - in short milagro ang kailangan ko. yaay

i wanna write about something,.. oh well next time na lang. :) and at least diba i have something to look forward to - Sept 1 (actually Sept 2) = Summer kind of Wonderful. can't wait!!!

Who wore it better?

2008-08-18T13:11:00.002+08:00

My cousin's red-white polka dot dress.

a. Herzl - she's gorgeous - I love her!
b. Kiersten - this is her blog, pagbigyan siya... (bwahahaha!)
c. I think it looks kind of the same on both of them, they're cousins! (both have German names la!?)

geesh. I can't believe Im wearing HER dress. Anw, vote people! just for fun! ha ha

2008-08-11T02:31:00.008+08:00

I hate it when people call me Anorexic. Siguro nga I have eating and weight issues, but I'm not...

Okay, time for a little confession Kaye…

Nung nasa Los Banos pa ako (and alam ito ng dormies ko) may mga pagkakataon na hindi talaga ako kumakain ng kahit na ano except for oatmeal and wheat bread cos if I eat other food, ivo-vomit ko lang rin. I always ask them kung tumataba ba ako or what and kung positive ang sagot nila, nade-depress talaga ako at hindi kakain. Nagkaroon din ng time na for every meal either 2 pcs lang ng almond cookie or banana (usually with coffee or swissmiss) ang kinakain ko, etc.

Kadalasan kasi, ang mga taong may eating issues, hindi lang nila kinocontrol ang pagkain nila because they wanna lose weight or whatever, but because yung pagkain lang yung bagay na kaya nila i-control. the more na pumapayat sila, feeling nila invincible sila... Inaamin ko minsan ganun yung nararamdaman ko, pero sakin naman feeling ko nakakaganti ako sa mga tao na nangbibwisit sakin pag nakakapag lose ako ng weight. Basta isang araw, nag decide na lang ako na magpapayat ako and I'll do anything...

I dont want to be thin, hindi ko hinahangad ang 23-inch na tiyan or whatsoever. just that galing na ako doon, ayoko ko nang ma-experience ulit. Pinaghirapan ko kung ano man ako ngayon at gusto ko na i-maintain yun. Siguro minsan sumosobra yung mga ginagawa ko para lang magawa yun, but you know Im really scared of getting fat. Kasi pag naalala ko lang yung dati, argh... masisi niyo ba ako? :(

Ngayon, thank God, 6 months na hindi bumabalik ang aking "vomit period", unstable ang weight, hindi na nakakapag-exercise, im eating more (than my usual) and surprisingly hindi ako tumataba (at least I think). Im super duper happy. Sure, conscious pa rin ako, but Im all good now. :)

haay, ano ba pinaggagagawa ko?

2008-08-05T17:09:00.013+08:00

This is a sudden-outburst-of-feelings kind of crap so pagpasensyhan na lang ang grammar ko and baka burahin ko rin ito. So there..

It’s been weeks since we (me and them) decided to postpone my application. The break gave me the time to reflect and look at some things.

I wanted to join this since I was in high school, I wanna be a lawyer. I’m aware of the process and what happens before and after you get in. I know that it’s a lifetime loyalty and I’m more than willing to commit. I’ve prepared myself physically, mentally, socially and spiritually for this.

I’ve declined invitations from other organizations and when I got theirs, I took the opportunity. Plus the fact that I was lonely, want to meet new people and something to keep me busy. I’ve always wanted them anyway…

So the realizations;

♥ I don’t want to be a lawyer. I can’t study/practice human rights and dehumanize people at the same time.
♥ I don’t need their name the letters, the connections and network. I can/ will do well on my own!
♥ It’s better to be bored and lonely than surrounded by people you barely know.
♥ I want to meet other people, being with them (with the rivalries and all) may well prevent me from doing so
♥ I’m not yet ready for commitments; I have to focus on more important things such as my Acads, fam and friends
♥ I have REAL friends, need I say more?

So kinailangan ko pang ma-experience lahat nang ito para marealize ko ang mga bagay na ito. Anw, I have no intentions na sumali sa iba because sila naman talaga yung gusto ko, its like them or nothing for me. Also, it all boils down to your values, because mas importante pa rin sakin yung trust ng family ko than having loyal brods and sisses. So there I quit and ill take the consequences.

2008-07-23T22:57:00.001+08:00

May 2008 – 114 lbs
June 2008 – 109 lbs
July 2008 – 100 lbs

Yaaay! Actually nag-eexpect talaga ako na mag gain because im eating more than usual and I dont even exercise (like 1 month na). The cheese diet is working for me. tell me, tell me... dapat talaga ako ang nasa commercial ng Fit n right. Jooke.

Someday magsusulat ako ng book on dieting and bebenta siya big time. The Kookie kitchen. kakabugin ko ang south beach at atkins. bwahaha

2008-07-13T23:12:00.002+08:00

Went to see Mamma Mia with my Momma... I’m not a fan of musicals so I didn’t know what to expect. Surprisngly, nagustuhan ko and I wouldn’t mind na panoorin sya ulit. People in the movie house were singing and dancing na nga in their seats . I even developed a crush on Pierce Brosnan Nag-agree kami ni Mama na timeless ang pagka hot nya. You’ll definitely enjoy this film, nooo Enjoy is an understatement. Nainis lang ako, bakit kailangan maging bakla ni Colin Firth?

I’m done with slippers and I want to buy a new pair of shoes – gladiator sandals, happy feet sneakers or another pair of keds. Geesh.., so many things to buy, so little money to spend!

2008-07-04T23:31:00.001+08:00

Geesh I had root canal!

I experienced a terrible tooth ache last week that made me visit the dentist. After the tests and the x-ray, she told me that I should undergo root canal therapy. I think that’s better rather than have it extracted because it will save my tooth.

It was of course painless, because of the anesthesia. I can’t wait to get my tooth crowned, because the temporary filling (calcium hydroxide paste) is effing irritating.

the process. ha ha

I dont know what else to say, I still dont know kung kelan magsisimula yung service ko sa "org". So I guess i-enjoy ko na lang ang remaining days ko bilang barbarian.

Oh and Im crushing on someone right now, he's really nice and basta bahala na. we'll see... :">

2008-06-24T23:34:00.000+08:00

I dont know how to explain this feeling, sure I have LOTS of friends (I know you guys are always there for me), sure I have the craziest and wackiest family, sure ako na yung pinaka cheerful na tao, just that I feel so empty and null. That feeling at the end of the day, after your last class and you walk yourself home... alone.

It's not that really that bad, but you know ang dami dami kong time pero wala akong kasama. I spend X hours in front of the computer doing nothing. pathetic, pero ganun talaga eh. So naiisip i ko, I should join an org or whatever.

I received invites from different oraganizations; from acad to sociocivic and even from greek societies. Nag-consult na ako sa parents ko about joining, they're ok with the idea, wag lang daw magpa dalos dalos sa mga decisions. So I guess my first task is to find an organization nag magfi-fit talaga sakin.

there are so many sleepless nights dahil pinag-isipan at tinimbang ko talaga ito. turned down great offers at nakapag decide na ako.. Im joining an organization!

ayoko munang sabihin kung anong klaseng org sya, although some of you ay meron nang idea. so there, that should keep me busy. lol/

2008-06-05T19:13:00.004+08:00

Be careful of what you wish for

Last week naiisip ko, paano kaya kung magkasakit ako, edi I’ll lose weight instantly. Bwahaha! Then poof, had headaches, fever, coughs, colds, muscle pains, etc. Just what I wanted, not! Natakot nga kami na baka Dengue na naman, sana hindi. Still not feeling well…

Nagpapatikim na ang Diliman – Joyce

I’ve had my fair share of the booboos ng enlistment, pumila ako for three days para lang makakuha ng slot sa LAHAT ng subjects ko. Lagi na lang akong umuuwi ng bahay na hilong-hilo. Sabi ni Mama, nung time nya daw 7am-5pm ang pila ng enlistment, for a single subject!. Ngayon ko naa-appreciate ang systemone ng UPLB.

Speaking of UPLB, geesh I never thought na ganun karami ang lumipat dito. Tuwing naglalakad ako sa FC, nakakakita ako ng either dormmate, classmate or blocmate. I’m super happy tho na ang daming blocmates ko ang nakapasok, most of them Socio pa rin. Nakapasok din si Dan (Creative Writing) and Joyce (FLCD), tinry namin ni Joyce na kumuha ng subjects together, pero wala talaga.

Kaye, nakita namin yung super crush mo! Gwapoo! – Pers

Ang dami nga nagsasabi ( sms or in person) sa akin na nakikita nila si Ex-super crush, but you know I’m totally over him. Diliman is like flooded with cute and hott guys, katulad na lang sa college namin. HA HA HA

Daig ng masipag ang matalino

2008-05-24T21:18:00.002+08:00

I know its kinda cliché, pero sobrang totoo nya.

I know I’m smart (according sa IQ ko and duh UPIS) and that I’m smarter kesa sa ibang tao… pero bat ganun, bat mas matataas grades and GWAs nila kesa sakin? Insecurities shit.

Getting low grades can be really really annoying, and it’s quite irritating that they got HIGHER grades. Hindi ko pa rin ma-get over na mas mababa yung grade ko sa Math11, when in fact AKO yung nagtuturo sa kanila. Na naka-uno sila sa Math1 and Philo1 samantalang ako mababa because of my Professors. Geesh.

Oh well, now that I’m in Diliman, magsisipag na talaga ako or at least try? I have the worst study habits.

Anw, Napili ko ang BS Community Dev’t (over Socio – former course). I know they are not ‘wow-able’ courses, sinusunod ko lang talaga interests ko plus I cant really imagine myself studying Math and Science. Also, according sa mga tests na tinake ko, nagfa-fall talaga ako sa mga courses-jobs that deal with people. social person much. Ha ha. Maybe I'll be the greatest community developer! LOLS

I can't believe Im back. Hello Katip's NBS, Mcdo and Cello's; namiss ko talaga kayo. I uber miss my UPIS girls, let's all go to Katip huh?!

For your eyes

2008-05-18T23:26:00.005+08:00

Went to Manila today with Ate Cams for Lola Letty's birthday. Super Fun, photo booth-ing, chocolate-eating, nonstop-talking and laughing. Yeey, first time this summer na I ate full meals...

pumayat daw ako?

Yeey to Ali Michael! No one wants another Ana Carolina.. ok?! Gah. I promise, I'll eat more.

2008-05-14T16:02:00.000+08:00

I got in!

course? I still don't know... I have yet to decide/find out. See you all next sem!

2008-04-30T17:24:00.003+08:00

I'm currently watching Greek. If you're stuck at home every single day, what would you do? Nanonood lang ako ng tv shows like GG, ANTM, Survivor and movies sa internet. It's okay naman cos ang daming cute guys (except survivor ok?!) sa mga shows and movies.

Is it just me or hotttt lang talaga sila? lahat na lang ata ng pinapanuod ko may nagiging crush ako. HAHAHA

Cappie of Greek. I lurve him! (Rob Thomas or Ashton Kutcher look-alike?)

I heard may version ang GMA ng survivor, Geesh I'm already 18 and gusto ko sumali (perks of being legal!). Nagpaparinig na ako sa parents ko na interesado ako. Nanunuod na ako ng survivor since Borneo (year 2000 - first season) and 'till now, Micronesia. kabisado ko na nga yung strategies and stuff, ha ha. As if naman kaya ko... grrrrr.. SURVIVOR!

Lola Lily's third death anniv is tmr, so I think the whole family will go to church and then visit her grave. still mourning. I love you and I miss you terribly, every single day. :((

ok I dont want to cry and... Cappie's waiting.

2008-04-25T02:40:00.001+08:00

I super love my new Layee, made specially for me by Ava . complete with profile, loves and links na talaga. ayaaayaaay. I feel loved.

thanks Dear! sooo Kookie! more of her works here!

may gusto akong i-post, just that hindi ko alam kung dapat ko ba i-publish dito or hindi ko alam kung sino lang ba dapat ang makabasa. we'll see...

quickie!

2008-04-23T02:00:00.002+08:00

Yee. So I went to the grad and here are some pictures... ako yung bida eh no? Actually ito ay mga 'stolen moments', lahat sila busy so wala talagang time for real pictures, souvenir pictures lang. :(

1.) Me and my ever beautiful cous. 2.) with my Mandot 3.) VM Class of '08

awww... parang kelan lang kami yung grumaduate. :((

So anw, gotta go... leaving for LB in like 5 hours...

ps: whatcha guys think about Ep. 14 of GG? OMG kilala ko na si Gossip Girl/Guy! haha spoiler.

update!

2008-04-22T01:01:00.002+08:00

I miss a lot of people

I miss my old friends. Those I used to spend my afternoons with. The stuffs we do together, watch UP play in the UAAP games and yell at the opposing schools. The tambays sa Gateway mall, the service or LRT and tricycle rides home. The venti-sized frappes, oreo donuts and large fries. Argh… just too many to mention!!!

So anw, I might see them tomorrow cos pupunta ako sa grad nila! I dunno with Dids, she has summer lessons kasi. Last week she and I went to trinoma to watch shutter, katulad dati tinadtad lang namin ng criticisms yung movie while eating kettle korn. ha ha.

Boring summer. I dunno I'm hoping na isama ako ng grandparents ko on their trip to Aklan this June, means Bora baby! Kahit na June na no, hell I care. Last time I went to Bora ay summer ’01 yata. On Pop's side of the family; I think I-ninvite na kami ng mga relatives from Zambales, just that lahat ata ng mga uncles ko kebs lang. ha ha. Keeping my fingers crossed.

2008-04-09T23:01:00.001+08:00

10 random facts.

Ang first song na namemorized ko ay Greatest love of all
I can eat nothing but wheat bread and oatmeal. I don't eat rice. Eat wheat!
I can’t ride a bicycle. Who needs to ride when you can walk?
I’m part of the NBSB club (HAHAHA guys where are you?)
I’m one of those who are not interested in migrating to another country
Lagi akong may dalang malaking bag ng M&Ms tuwing nanunuod ng lantern parade sa Diliman
I had dengue 5 times. Immune na!
My first dog was named Jasmine and may stuff friends ako at ang names nila Anne Sherina and German.
When I was young, nasunog ko yung kilay ko!
Sort of nagkaroon ako ng arranged marriage. The guy is like 7 years older than me… and my childhood sweetheart looks exactly like Macaulay Culkin.

HAHAHA

2008-03-30T04:13:00.001+08:00

I'm officialy back here in QC, tho I still have to make few visits to LB to pass some requirements and get some documents. I cannot believe that it’s almost over; May tendency kasi ako mag-enjoy when things are approaching the end. Ha ha. Whatever Kaye.

I don’t want to transfer because life there is wonderful, simple and laid back. The place is very intimate, halos lahat ng tao magkakakilala or kahit paano connected. Tatanggapin ka nila kung sino ka, hindi mo kailangan na i-present yung sarili mo, you can go to school with your pambahay and its perfectly normal. No day is like the other, everyday is special and full of surprises/challenges and I want to expand my horizon and broaden my experiences. Being there made me appreciate the life I have here, made me stand alone, without my parents to guide me. I made lots of friends, enjoyed every bit of my stay there. Also, there are people here that I never really want to see EVER again.

I want to transfer for practical reasons, school is just an ikot ride away from home at sobrang magiging magastos pag nagtagal pa ako dun. Madami akong na-mimiss na events kapag andun ako, family gathering, special occassions, reunion with my HS friends, etc. I want to reunite with my friends; although I understand na may mga sarili na kaming buhay ngayon and things will never be the same, but you know it’ll be easier to hang out with them if I’m also there.

I’m okay either way.

The thing in LB is that things will change kahit na ano mangyari, whether I transfer or not. maghihiwa-hiwalay din kami ng mga tao na nakasama ko at naging mahalaga sa college life ko. No more pangangapit-bahay when Dan is sleeping, to Steph’s room to heat water, to Joyce’s para makipag-daldalan with Joyce and Mich. No more Sheen to visit me just to check if I’m okay, no more Stine, Aprille, Yam, Gellie, Mik, Nami, etc. na magpapatawa/makikipagkwntuhan sakin pag malungkot ako. It’s the simple things that I’ll miss. I still don’t know kung makakalipat kami nila Joyce and Dan, sila yung mga naging close ko talaga in college and I want to be with them, in LB or Diliman.

ang year na ito ang craziest year ng buhay ko; full of ups and downs. I’m thankful for all the people who stayed with me. :)

2008-03-20T03:58:00.000+08:00

New Layee!

still busy with school. I'll try to update this effed blog sometime.

2008-03-18T23:21:00.001+08:00

embarrassing but fuun.

were supposed to breach norms for our soc10 class. here are some pictures/

(1). me and Dan (2). me and tanjo

(3). socio people - rizel, me, myka, jeff and Dan

(4.) buko pie at we deliver

kinantahan pa ako ng ng fans club ng "paro - parong bukid" mofo!

2008-03-09T00:23:00.000+08:00

Sawa na ako

Sawa na akong gumawa ng Gawain pampa-aralan
Sawa na akong magpabalikbalik (bahay-eskwela,eskwela-bahay)
Sawa na akong kumain ng oatmeal at wheat bread lamang
Sawa na akong magbawas/magpanatili ng timbang
Sawa na akong makitungo sa mga taong nakakaasar na
Sawa na akong gumising ng 5:30 ng umaga, araw-araw
Sawa na ako sa mga kanta sa aking mp3
Sawa na akong magsuot ng pantaloon
Sawa na akong tingnan ang sarili ko sa salamin, upang tingnan kung tumaba ba ako o hindi.
Sawa na akong sumakay ng bus, makipagsiksikan sa mrt at mag jeep tuwing biyernes ng hapon

Napapagod na ako dahil tao lang naman ako. )):
Ayoko na…

2008-02-16T10:04:00.001+08:00

I’ll make this quick.

Ininvite ako ng friend ko sa dating thing last Tuesday. Curiosity + Persuasion = GO. Nung nalaman ng mga friends ko na kasali ako, lahat sila na-excite. First date amp.

1st guy – friendly and nice. Buti nalang sha nauna dahil madaldal sya, dahil dun nawala yung kaba ko. He’s from Rural, so medyo nag compare lang kami ng schools namin.
Verdict; fun to be with, but not my type.

2nd guy – the easiest guy to talk to. Mainly because bago nag start yung date proper, magkakasama na kami at nag-aasaran. So parang naging formal na pagmi-meet namin yung date. We were laughing the entire time.
Verdict; friend-friend

3rd guy - among the guys, sha lang ata yung sumeryoso nung date thing. Sa kanya ko lang na-feel na 'date' ito.
verdict: No.

4th guy - cutie! snobbish tho. Nahirapan ako makipag-usap sa kanya, kasi hindi talaga sya nagsasalita masyado. Nalaman nalang namin na may something kami in common. Voila! ha ha ha
verdict: :)

5th guy - mucho macho. Sabi nya ang cute daw ng names namin. ok?! Basically ang pinag-usapan namin ay yung tungkol sa frat nya, dahil brods sila ng uncle ko.
verdict: ayos lang..

6th guy - Jolly and uber friendly. natatawa ako sa kanya actually...
verdict: friend-friend

7th guy - NO COMMENT

8th guy - he's okay, nice and friendly. Crush pala sya ng blocmates ko. Basically ang pinag-usapan namin ay tungkol sa Acads and sa Profs dahil parehas kami ng course. Tas nag joke sha about something.. powch. basta.
verdict: friend!

9th guy - sabi ng friend ko, sya ang cutest. Mostly yung school nya ang pinag-usapan namin and yung course nya.
verdict: friend!

Another reason why I joined this thing is para masanay ko yung sarili ko in talking sa opposite sex. As you all know, scarce ang guy buds ko. I'm not looking for a romantic relationship, not now... I want friends okay?! It was fun! Na-enjoy ko yung experience, and yun naman ung mas importante di ba? So there... :)

2008-02-09T11:32:00.000+08:00

an exerpt from my phlo analysis.

REASON vs. INNOCENCE

... With innocence, there is absolute freedom and purity; you are free to do anything because you are untroubled or even oblivious...

We always wish of going back in time hoping to escape from this life full of complexities.

you were once happy with the simplest of things, you may not have everything because probably you don't even know what's there outside your world and yet you are happy. When you grow up, you go outside the comforts of your family. You go to school, meet new people, learn new things and then you’ll seek for more. You’ll want to go to different places, meet new people, learn everything and you won’t stop 'till you get tired and weary. Only to discover that you’re life has gotten complicated and your problems are piling up. then you'll wish to escape from all of these...

With reason, there is infinite curiosity. There is forever longing for an answer to every question and forever searching for the unknown. Yes in the long run, answers to these questions will give you peace and comfort. But Science nor Math can't answer everything. And if one day you'll be able to find answers to these questions, you will seek for more and more and you just won't stop. and this cycle in search for knowledge is what makes your life complicated...

sabaw. I know.

2008-02-02T20:51:00.000+08:00

they still can't get me out of their systems.

Love me or hate me, its still an obsession.
Love me or hate me, that is the question.
If you love me then Thank you!
If you hate me then fuck you!

Acually, I wanna thank you guys... kayo nag-inspire sakin na magbago, and I'm lovin' the new me.
and I'm still going to shine!

xoxo

2008-01-26T14:55:00.000+08:00

matagal na kayong andyan pero bakit ngayon niyo lang ako napapansin? Kailangan ba mahirapan muna ako bago niyo ako makita? Kailangan ba baguhin ko muna ang sarili ko?

Hindi ko naman kayo kailangan, lalong hindi ko inasam ang atensyon niyo. Pwede ba, umalis na lang kayo sa buhay ko?

Sabaw.

********sidetrack********

pasok ako sa Honor Roll! :))

2008-01-06T00:41:00.000+08:00

Happy New Year!

year 2007 went well, kahit na maraming nagbago at nangyari.

graduation-left UPIS-went to College-found new friends, lost some-fell out of love-turned 18.

but still, I'm thankful; for the blessings, for the love, for the happiness and tranquility, for those who stayed with me, for the sorrows and tears, for everything.

So it's a new year and I have a new lurve! lalala...

You guys prolly know that im currently crushing on this model-turned-actor. He's hot as hell! His voice melts me and his smile makes me tremble. I swear tinamaan ata ako!

Well actually... he reminds me of someone from the past.

You know who you are. I miss you! :[

2007-12-27T00:38:00.000+08:00

December 24 - spent the whole day cleaning the house, cooking and non-stop kwentuhan with my parents (absentee little brother). I sometimes feel (and wish!) that I’m an only child. I’m not comfortable when he’s around. I don’t hate him, just that I don’t like his ways.

After the wonderful dinner Nyao prepared, the four of us went to church. My brother joined his friends and the church people, so kami nalang ulit. I hate being in church, I hate the teens who go there just to look for potential bfs/gfs, I hate the kids who go there just to play around, I hate people who go to church para lang masabing nagsimba sila, etc. Church is place for worship you know…

After the mass, my parents and I decided to go to Tito Greg’s house. While waiting for my cousin Che, they (Tito, ate Haze and Pop) made me drink Mojitos. Ha ha.. nasobrahan ako sa salt! We went home around 11:30pm, just in time for Noche Buena.

December 25 – the Usual Christmas; went to Antonio’s for the Annual gift giving and Christmas Lunch. Riot na naman! Then we went to Tito Denis’ place for the Annual Christmas Family Reunion. Boring nung simula, I helped Enchon with his chores, Adrian’s new girlfriend was there too (she’s lucky hindi pa dumadating mga manlalait sa kanya!). Then my cousins arrived with their respective boyfriends. Kwentuhan and kainan mostly ang nangyari sa mga girls, yung mga boys andun inuman. Bwahaha.

So there…

2007-12-23T00:09:00.000+08:00

Two days ‘till Christmas and still can’t feel the season’s spirit.

Is it just me or Christmas is just not as exciting like it was before? I already did my Christmas Shopping, bought more clothes than before, bought gifts for special people but still NOT HAPPY.

Is it because I’m worrying too much? I worry about the things that I’m not supposed to. I’m scared of uncertainties that loom. Come back innocent days!

I’ll be spending the Christmas break reading my Hum1 hand-outs (150 pages) and will try to review for my Exams on January. What a way to start ’08!

Nyao wants to have ‘comfort’ foods for our Noche Buena. Define comfort! She wants Chocolate pound cake, Purple Yam, Leche Flan, burgers, Carbonara, Chicken Relleno, etc. But Kaye wants Tanigue and Shrimps!

‘A pleasure to the lips adds pounds to the hips’

It's pig out season so make the most of it!

2007-12-19T22:49:00.000+08:00

There are many things to write about… just too lazy to update this rotten blog.

Na discover ko na masaya pala i-beat ang curfew lalo na kung tumambay kayo sa C-park and nag stroll sa campus and kung magaling kayo pumuslit kay Manong guard. Hahaha.

Happy Holidays!

entering a threshold

2007-12-04T17:44:00.000+08:00

It's my 18th tomorrow. I dunno... weird. had an outpour of emotions a while ago. ha ha Anyway, the greatest gift I can give myself on this special day is my family. So yeah, I'm going home tomorrow cos I effin don't wanna spend it here sleeping.

I asked my roomie, Dan about the perks of being an adult. We came up with only two... freedom and legality. Still don't want to be an adult (I'm the kiddy kaye right?!) Ugh.. for me being an adult is a responsibility. (don't wanna elaborate...)

So I'll see you guys on my birthday celebration/s (I have three, I think?) !

sick and tired

2007-11-25T03:12:00.000+08:00

Hello there! Sorry for not updating this effed blog (like you care).

I really love the Registrar for giving me a wonderful sched. *ten watery kisses*. Ha ha. I gotta wake up before sunrise para wala masyadong tao sa bathroom. No decent baths cos wala pang running water ng 5:30 am. Then your first class is Hum1 (literature, the individual and the society) at 7 am. And the weather is really gloomy… makes me want to sleep.

It’s really nice to be with my college friends again but… I dunno. Parang mas masaya yung first sem. Going home on Fridays and then balik ng Sundays can be really tiring. I wanna spend more time with my fam!

I’m also pissed because of my low grades (2.5) in NatSc and PolSc. Understandable yung PolSc, cos I flunked the exams (tae bloodshed kaya yun!) and 50% yata ng grading dun ay exams. But NatSc6… uno-able daw yung subject, eh highest nga namin 2.0 partida perfect pa ako sa quizzes and exempted sa finals, then I got a fucking 2.5?!! Sayang may chance pa naman sana akong mag honor roll or even college scholar, but because I got 2.5s…

Also there’s this annoying group of guys. I’m doing my best to avoid them pero basta.. anu ba nangyayari sa buhay ko?!

Oh well, I’m really excited sa swimming, Math11 (cos its easy pa) and Soc10.

Sembreak bum life is over.

2007-11-12T17:25:00.000+08:00

I'm leaving for school tomorrow (and I should start packing!). Things will be a little different because of my schedule… ill try to make the most of the semester; academically, socially and physically lols. It's my last chance to improve my grades; I need to so that I can transfer... then bye bye LB life. ):

I'm so happy to have settled everything with… can't wait to see you again. You still owe me a slice of that chocolate cake. (:

Okay so I decided not to have a party for my 18th birthday. Why? Waste of money! I'm thinking of having a simple dinner at some resto with my closest friends and some cousins. I will only invite people who are dear to me. So please come if you get an invite ok?!

hello sembreak!

2007-10-22T17:52:00.000+08:00

Whoo! I survived my first sem in LB. Aren't you guys proud of me? Hahaha

I'm glad that it’s over. Tho I'll be missing lots of things. Siyempre lahat yata ng firsts sa buhay kolehiyo, na-experience ko nung first sem. May isa akong Prof nung HS na nagsabi na “UP life, is elbi life”. True!

Masaya talaga ako na ganito ka-aga, na-experience ko na literal na lumabas ng aking comfort zone. Nararamdman ko talaga na nag-mature at nag-grow ako (somehow), na-realize ko yung worth ng mga tao sa paligid ko, at dahil nalalayo ako sa kanila mas tinetreasure ko sila.

Thankful din ako for my LB sisses, college won't be much fun without them. I'm looking forward to our IRRI, gateway escapades and the tambays at IC's, square, crib etc, lalo na that we'll have the Thursday nights in LB.

No regrets. Ngayon ko nararamdaman yung bliss, contentment, peace of mind. I dunno, ang gaan gaan ng feeling ko. Siguro dahil na rin sa session ko sa Brahma Kumaris. Lols.

The best days of college are yet to come.

I can't face the problem if the problem is my face

2007-10-12T12:18:00.000+08:00

Dan told me this;

“The more you resist, the more he exist”

True Dan, very true…

Anyway, I have pimples all over my nose and chin. It seems to be getting worse each day. Last Tuesday, I went to class with a band aid plastered on my nose. Boy, everyone’s looking at me. My SocSc Prof even told me; “oh Ms. Sociology, anong ginawa mo sa ilong mo? tinerno mo pa yung color ng band aid sa damit mo.”

So I went to the infirmary (infirMATAY actually...) after like 2 hours of waiting, the Doctor told me that it was acne. So I was like, noooo... I can’t afford to have acne. That’s just so fuuugly. Hahahaha. She told me get this medicine, which was extremely expensive.

Later that night, my aunt invited me for dinner. So she and Eunice fetched me at Vega, we also went to IRRI to fetch my German cousins and uncle. The short trip was kind of weird. Eunice and I were talking in Filipino, and the four of them were talking in German. So my aunt said, “Everyone, we have guests okay, so we should speak in English”. HAHAHA

Eunice is my second cousin, currently in her 2^nd year in UPLB. And we didn’t know that were classmates in NatSc6 because we don’t really know each other and NatSc6 is a large class. But she’s considering swimming next sem, with me of course.

Back to my Acne issue; my aunt told me that it’s not Acne, just simple pimples that got worse (dahil kinu-kutkot ko and dahil na rin sa stress). She gave me this cleanser and some facial cream. Bianca (my German cousin) had the same face problem na rin daw. Oh and they asked me if I’m willing to be my cousin’s EK and MOA buddy. “Suuure… I can fix my sched!” LOL

Back again to my acne issue; yeeey. It’s okay now, in week maybe balik na sa dati.

will write something about the super fun loyalty day/alumni home coming in UPLB next time!

putting a smile on my sober face

2007-10-06T22:48:00.000+08:00

I won't share anything about the ordeal I'm going through right now. I cried my heart out for three fucking days already and that's enough.

I just want to thank all those who helped me get through this horrible experience.

To my sisters, you don't have any idea how your messages uplifted me. You gals never fail to make me smile no matter how gloomy my heart is. I love you sisses! *big bear hug*

Special thanks to Joyce for the necklace - I will treasure it forever.

I'll be fine, don't worry. :)

Something to smile about – I have a fan club! Gained them after they saw me playing hopscotch near their tambayan, and ALL of them are HOTties. *evil grin*

tangled in a web called heartache

2007-10-05T22:11:00.001+08:00

You are far,
I'm never gonna be your star,
I'll pick up the pieces
And mend my heart,
Maybe I'll be strong enough,
I don't know where to start,
But I'll never find
Peace of mind,
While I listen to my heart

Kissing a fool - George Michael

What hurts me the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do

What hurts me the most - Rascal Flatts

2007-10-04T22:28:00.000+08:00

Of all the stars in the sky, why did I fell for that one who refuse to fall?

2007-10-04T13:39:00.000+08:00
dreams and fantasies are now OVER.

wanted!

2007-09-30T14:44:00.000+08:00

someone is looking for me?

and its about some instat survey. according to ate pearl, pinili daw kami ng registrar. To my dismay, I found these na naka-post sa Main Buildings like Hum (parang AS sa Diliman) and PhySci. Kill me!

learned helplessness

2007-09-29T21:10:00.000+08:00

Is the helplessness and resignation learned when humans or animals perceive no control over repeated bad events.

How's Kaye?

2007-09-22T21:36:00.000+08:00

Hey gals!

How’s me? - I’m still the lazy ass.

How’s school? – Just fine. Not satisfied with my grades tho. I should have studied harder for the SocSci1, flunked the definitions part but the essay part, caaake (at least for me!). So there, got 1.5. Also not happy with Hum2 and NatSc6, no more 1.0 for me… puro 1.75 na lang. Fudge. PolSc – I don’t have an effin idea, but I’m still, my Prof’s fave student.

System one gave me 21 units for the next semester. Overload! But I don’t think my college sec will allow that. Also, my next-sem sched will not be as good my current sched. 2 majors and 5 GEs, (according sa joke; BS GE) so what will I cancel Hum or Math…? I'll have basic swimming for my next PE. I can't wait 'till matapos na ang PE1, my worst subject.

How’s Life? – Not good. HARD actually. But if that’s how you want it to be, then I’ll let you go. (It’s NOT about love life ok?!)

How’s life in LB? – Greaaat! I’m addicted to butterfly bread, mucho delicioso! Me and my dormmates went to the square to chillax. Had fun.. tho theres this guy sa restobar na pinipilit kaming uminom. Hell Nooo!

I lalalaooove my sociogirls, esp. my wingmates; Joyce, Yam, Anna, Gellie and soooo much more. and of course my sis, Danana. I know we've only known each other for like 3 months... and its really amazing na suddenly nag *boom!* ang friendship namin and seems like every night ata ay slumber party. we'll be future sisses! yada yada!

Me: HAHAHAHA!
Senior classmate: judgmental! HAHAHAHA!
SC: you know what, you don’t act like a freshie and that’s good. Nung freshie ako, takot na takot ako and tatahi-tahimik ako.
Me: does that mean magulo ako or what...?
SC: maybe because galing kang UPIS. Mga UPIS and rural kasi… ano eh..
Me: mayayabang… malalakas ang loob? HAHAHA…
SC: HAHAHAHAHA

2007-09-20T23:44:00.000+08:00

MAYBE Friendships aren't meant to be saved. maybe we're meant to spend a certain part of our lives with certain people then move on. - Ate Cams

OM SHANTI!

2007-09-16T17:00:00.000+08:00

Our Psy1 class went to this spiritual university in Tagaytay for our field trip. I really thought na hindi ako mag-eenjoy, but I was sooo wrong. I learned lots of things from the facilitators, especially kay Sister Salud.

Thoughts lead to destiny.

I must not dwell on waste thoughts.

It’s really up to us whether we live with peace or chain ourselves to the bitterness and grudges of the past.

I have the power to think what I want, no matter what the circumstance.

The power of positive thinking

My self-worth

Its hard to put them into words. But after nung meditation, ang gaan-gaan talaga ng feeling ko. Nakapag share din pala ako ng positive traits ko, and natanggap ko rin yung mga positive traits nila.

I am now a peaceful soul. Om Shanti!

Oh and we also went to Picnic grove. Here are some pictures!

2007-09-13T14:07:00.000+08:00

I almost died today.

I almost got hit by a jeepney and the piggoys (police people) even yelled at me. my fault anyway. Nawawala kasi ako sa sarili.

oh blame yb! :(( tatanga-tanga talaga ako...

But I'm okay (I think so..). not a scratch.

2007-09-07T00:37:00.000+08:00

Time: 6:20 pm.

Nag quit lang ako sa pagrereview for SocSci midterms (bloodshed). Gonna meet Abbie sa DL in about 10 minutes, we'll watch this supposed to be world class dance something (ticket is 1000 PHP for outsiders. Overpricing!). 'Till this girl told me that someone is looking for me – My Aunt from Germany!!!

So I hurriedly went out and there she is…

We hugged and kissed. She told me that she already saw me somewhere sa Grove, but hindi siya sure kasi ang laki na daw ng pinagbago ko. She was also looking for me daw sa mga dorms sa campus (oh the effort…). Ang cool pa kasi yung room number niya nung nakatira pa siya sa dorm ko, geesh… it's 2212. The very room kung saan ako nakatira.

*told Abbie not to wait for me*

We went to their house, had a quick tour tapos dinner.

Tita told me that I can go to their house anytime. And pag free na daw ako from my LE's, me and my cousins will have slumber parties and mamasyal daw kami sa LB. And she knows how bitchy yung water sa dorm, so kung maging bitchy man daw I can always text her and she'll pick me up.

"you know what, kahit sabihin nila na magastos ang magpa-aral dito... it's okay lang for me. You can't buy the experience of being free..."

Cooooool!

Craptackular

2007-09-01T23:40:00.000+08:00

Last week, nag discuss kami sa bloc meeting ng ilang serious topics na ayaw man naming pag-usapan ay kailangan. It's about transferring and shifting.

yun naman talaga ang plan diba, to go there first and then transfer after a year.

buuut what if... I don't want to transfer. I don't want to leave cos I love everything about that place. I'm happy and contented with the way things are going in my life. I'm starting to like someone and I don't want to leave him. I have the best roommates, bloc mates and class mates anyone could wish for.

What can I do... transferring is the practical choice.

So for now I'll just enjoy everything. I only have 5 weeks and then 2nd semester na! Must say that qualifying in LB is one of, if not the best that ever happened to me.

2007-08-26T00:38:00.000+08:00

Visitors. Nights out and trips.

I'm tired from the Manila Trip but hell I want to blog. Lots of things happened this week and I wanna share some... lol.

Tuesday – PolSc LE = bloodshed. Kuya Nico told me na may foreign visitors daw ako, but hindi ko sila nakita cos I was out with Dana. Foreign visitors in LB. I'm guessing na yung mga cousins ko from Germany. Later that night, pumunta sila Sheen sa room namin, niyaya nila ako to go out. We watched Isko't Iska sa Hum steps and then went star gazing sa oblation with Dan.

Wednesday - dorm Acquaintance party. Partied 'till 1 am, I think… There was this weird couple na nag-slow dance sa Tokyo drift. Just effin weird.

Thursday – Dan's friend came over and kung saan-saang parts ng campus namin siya hinanap, misadventures na naman. Someone "invited" me for this thing next week, hell nooo. Watched Isko't Iska again.

Friday – sleeping marathon

Saturday – Trip to Manila. Ito na ata ang pinaka-masaya na Field trip na pinuntahan ko. Akala ko talaga magiging boring kasi puro museums yung pupuntahan namin, but nooo. Enjoy sa San Agustin church, Casa Manila and Lights and Sounds Museum. Then we had our lunch sa bus (c/o dencios) and caffeine fix sa starbucks, CCP Museum naman. Na-Hyper ako, pati si Sandra na super quiet nahawa ata sakin pati yung musical instruments dun patago naming pinaglalaruan. Tapos nahuli ata ako nung museum guy, kaya ayun pinagtawanan nila ako.

Pagdating sa bus, lahat hyper. Pati yung tour guide and yung bus conductor ginawan ng loveteam nung mga boys. Nagkakayayaan na sa MOA and nagkaroon kami ng game sa bus. Then National Museum, kung saan namin nakita ang Spoliarium and yung iba pang works ni Luna and Hidalgo.

Fuuuuuun. Now I'm looking forward naman sa susunod na trip.

realizations

2007-08-20T00:14:00.000+08:00

Today I realized that I'm such a scale whore. I check first how much yung calories before I eat something. If it's something over 150 then noooo thanks. last week, I ate almond cookies and crackers only with swissmiss or coffee. So I was able save 1,000++ pesos. Hooray!

When I'm home naman, I eat sandwich or sometimes soup nalang. Yaaay. Mom's gonna cook pasta tmr, my fave... can't resist!

Now, don't get me wrong. I don't have an eating disorder or anything close to that. I'm just ooober weight-conscious cos I don't wanna be fat again. Lost 7 friggin inches off my waist, so maintain, maintain and maintain.

Torn?

2007-08-17T14:15:00.000+08:00

I'm certain sa feelings ko for him. He's the reason... my happiness. Pero hanggang kailan ako maghihintay, hanggang kailan ako aasa na there is something between us?

I'm not yet tired... buuuuut signs aren't enough.

It's you that I want. Argh.

I'm starting to like this guy. Nag lu-look forward ako sa class namin together and the way he smiles pag magka-usap kami. Kung pano siya mag-initiate ng conversation, yung mga binibigay niya sakin na kung anu-ano and blah blah.

My roommate thinks that this guy likes me... pero bat lagi ko siyang iniisip?

Oh noes...

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2007-08-11T22:49:00.000+08:00

I'm loving PolSc 10. Tho super boring yung discussion at hindi ako nagbabasa ng readings, attentive pa rin ako. yada yada.

Prof: Class, Dependency Theory says that, 3rd world countries are dependent to 1st world countries.
Me: Sir, hindi po ba fact na yan ngayon?
Prof: *thinks* you know what, yung last person na nagsabi niyan, Prof siya... natanggal siya sa department. So you better be careful hija.
Me: ooookaaaay.

Just got my package from the states. Athleta tank tops again and humongous amount of chocolates plus some shoes, bags, clothes, magazines, etc. My dear aunt oooberly lurves me.

Geesh. I miss everyone. Nakasabay ko kanina si Heidie sa jeep, nagkwentuhan kami the entire time. Nakatext ko din si Mandot, she told me na super miss niya na rin daw ako and yung bonding moments namin sa service, katips and gateway. kelan ko kaya kayo makikitang lahat?

PS; Mom's furious, phone bill kasi is 5,000 plus and its because of my bro's IDD calls.

2007-08-09T23:47:00.000+08:00

I don't have much to say, but I have lotssss of pictures. ooooberdooper fun here in LB and I don't feel like transferring na sa Diliman. May something dito sa LB na hindi ko mahanap sa Diliman and that's uhmm.. happiness. hahah!

Temple something sa walingwaling St.

1-2-3 Jump!

Lanzones Street?

bonding with Mariang Banga.

Happy Bday blockmate!

It's raining and raining and raining and I'm waiting...

at the square with DanNami and I- after our Soc Sci class

the temple..

Barbarian?

2007-08-04T14:23:00.000+08:00

Hindi talaga ako sasali sa kahit na anong org sa school, magpapaka barbaro na lang talaga ako.

wanna know why? here;

clickie

2007-08-03T01:28:00.000+08:00

Miss Keyboard ka ba?
- huh..?
Kasi type na type kita...

Faggotly hilarious.. I swear.

2007-08-03T00:30:00.000+08:00

I'm pissed. studied Phil. traditional food for three effin days. had to memorize yung food per region then poof..... wala ng exam, mag-evaluate na lang daw kami ng presentors. I was cussing like hell na.

Natuwa naman ako dun sa presentation. lalo dun sa part na sumisigaw sila ng Yosi kadiri. *kudos to that person who made that yosi stick thing*. Sapol na sapol si yosiboy dun.

Nagkaroon pala kami ng Exam sa Humaties 2, yung second part super nosebleed talaga. Ipa-analyze daw ba yung isang piece ni Beethoven gamit ang elements ng music. Then biglang dinistribute yung art gal reaction papers namin.

Nung nakita ko yung paper ko, tinitigan ko siya. sabi ko anu yung nilagay ni Ma'am, nilgayan niya lang ng 1 then nakabilog.

Kuya upperclass: ang galing galing mo naman..!

me: huh..?

seatmate: ano ka ba? UNO nakuha mo no!

me: onga noh. wow naka uno ako.. teka.. binarbero ko to eh. Woooow!

Oh my fucking dawd. Flat one beybeh.

Geesh ang daming fieldtrips; Psy - Tagaytay, Hum - Manila and Ilocos, Pol Sci - Senate. Excited much.

2007-07-27T01:37:00.000+08:00

Last week, sinabihan kami ng Prof namin sa Psy na gumawa ng dream journal, and simula nun ang weird na ng mga napapanaginipan ko.

I had this dream na sa 18th birthday ko daw ay sasabihin na sakin ng parents ko na adopted lang daw ako. Yung friend ko naman, napanaginipan daw ako na nag jo-jog sa freedom park and kasama ko daw si you-know-who. Yee.

naligaw kami ni Dan kagabi sa Araneta. Imagine 2 college girls na naglalakad sa streets ng Cubao na may dalang malalaking bags and kahon ng cakes. Fucktard. Hindi tuloy kami nakapag timezone, tekken sana kami. :((

Hmmm.. draco malfoy, Fred, hedwig, lupin, tonks etc. may common daw na mangyayari sa kanila. hahahaha. Dami kasing spoilers dun sa LB, I swear pag nakita ko yung gay spoiler dun sa dorm namin,, papatayin ko sha! Avada Kedavra!

PS; panalo kami sa debate!

2007-07-22T09:31:00.000+08:00

Hello dudettes!

The other day nagtingin kami ng parents ko ng possible na soro na sasalihan ko.Yep that's right, I'll join nga but next year pa. Pag nakalipat na ako. Niyaya ako ng roomie ko dun sa soro ng ate niya and si Yosiboy, binigyan ako ng primer sa frat niya. Sige may one year ako para mag-isip, siyempre pipili ako nung hindi magulo and hindi puro lakwatsa lang. Im quite serious pagdating sa plans ko sa buhay ko.

Sa organizations naman, may nag rerecruit na samin ng mga blockmates ko. Nagtetext na sila samin kaso bawal pa no. I have no plans na ma-suspend ng one year. Pag nakalipat na ako, dun ko na lang iisipin yan.

Okay so im currently using my brother's phone, really really nice of him na ipahiram sakin yung phone niya cos yung phone na binigay sakin ni Pops walang signal sa LB. poor me.

Hopkins or Wright? Wright ako, and yung parents ko kay Hopkins. Hopkins is way too old for this shit, he's 42 na yata pero natalo niya si De la Hoya before. While si Wright natalo niya yung mga tumalo kay Golden Boy and maganda ang record niya. Exciting. Geesh, bat ako nanunuod ng boxing? My uncles kasi are boxing enthusiasts and pati pala si lola, bumili pa siya dati ng Ali doll nung nag visit dito dati yun. okay that's kind of freaky..

Adios for now, punta kami sa UP shopping center to buy maroon shorts for my PE class.

2007-07-20T14:31:00.000+08:00

Ang Diyos ba ang gumawa ng tao o ang tao lang ang gumawa ng Diyos?

Okay so we had this homework sa isang subject, ano daw ba ang position namin sa Creationism and Evolutionism na yan. Kung hindi ako nagkakamali, nagkaroon na kami ng debate about that nung 5th grade pa lang. (iba talaga ang UPIS Education!) Kahit Catholic ako, mas naniniwala pa rin ako sa Evolutionism.

Pinapili kami ng Prof. namin; quiz or debate. siyempre sa debate kaming lahat, sino ba may gusto ng test? Kasoo, 7 lang kami sa Evolutionism and 30 plus sila sa kabila.

the debate went well for our team, nakapag bigay kami ng enough na evidence and na-counter namin ng maayos yung mga binabato nila, while sila puro bible lang and hindi pa concrete. Then naiisip ko na i-question ang authenticity ng Bible. Medyo tagilid na rin sila and its quite obvious na wala na talaga silang makapitan, mere faith and bible only. Nasabihan na nga sila kasi nilalayo na nila yung topic talaga, napunta na nga sa Elements.

yung isa ko namang groupmate ike-question sana si Adam and Eve, kaso instead na si Eve, Eden nasabi nia (napagtawanan tuloy kami) and lumalayo na kami sa topic at naging walang kwenta plus wala nang time. Nag decide si Prof. na continue na lang sa Tuesday.

E: diba naniniwala kayo na si Adam and Eve ang unang tao sa mundo?
C: oo
E: tapos yung anak nila 2 lang diba, both are guys pa. pano tayo dumami? mi-nate nila yung nanay nila? Incest yun!!!!

C: Energy cannot be created nor destroyed!

hahahahahahaha!

Argh. so ngayon kailangan kong mag research. Marami na rin akong naiisip na ibabato sa kanila and possible na pang counter. heehee. :)

2007-07-15T00:40:00.000+08:00

Many interesting things happened this week and uhhh.. I can't share everything. hahahaha.

katulad ng HP movies, na hindi mabigyang justice yung books, kasi imposible din naman na ibigay mo yung every itsy bitsy detail. Hindi ko rin kayang i-blog lahat, cos makakatulog lang kayo and I'm not making any sense na. lol.

Me and my dormmates went to this Freshie night sa Baker. It was fuuun! met lots of people ( I can't remember their names na). Okay sana kaso twice nagkaroon ng power interuption, kamusta naman yun? and yung friend ko naghahanap ng ghost habang walang kuryente. Ginawa rin naming ethnic dance yung mga kanta ni Nelly and we did the "amoy your kili kili" step. (kakapanood kasi ng sandayaw)

anyway nanuod ako ng HP5 sa Trinoma with my mom and Keith. (nasayang pala kay Keith, kasi nakatulog siya) Na-excite naman ako na nakikita ko na sa bigscreen yung book na binabasa ko lang 4 years ago, and medyo nalimutan ko na rin yung story. Maganda naman yung movie, yun nga lang magbasa ka muna bago ka manuod.

(kasalukuyang binobomba ako ni carl ng criticisms sa HP.)

wala na si Sirius Black and sa next book si Dumbledore naman, pano na kaya si Harry pagdating sa 7th? waaah. gusto ko ng HP7, kaso ayoko bumili. hahaha. marami akong pinagkakautangan ng cake, mamumulubi ako kapag kung anu-ano ang binili ko.

2007-07-06T14:15:00.000+08:00

Oh Dawg. I wasn't able to attend the "too fresh, too furious" concert at Vega cos uhmm... I had to review for my NatSci6 and Psy1 exams. So habang sila nag-eenjoy dun, ako naman ay nagpapaka loner sa room at nagrereview ng notes. Then nung exams na... Crap. FOUR items ONLY. yung first 2; true or false and yung latter multiple choice. So I was ultraMEGAfuckingly pissed. Oh well... I do hope na perfect naman sana yun. I got lost sa last question.

From now on, hindi ko na kakalimutan si John Watson and yung Sikolohiyang Pilipino, dahil sa kanila 27/30 na lang ako sa Psych. And why am I so stupid para isipin na joke lang na parrot yung bird sa seal ng UP. Parrot pala talaga yun, stupid stupid me.

Kabado kaming pumasok sa SocSci, we’re all scared of the Toro sessions. Good thing pumasok si Manong with the TV and DVD player, manunuod daw kami ng Joan of Arc. Boohoo! Jeanne, the Maiden from Lorraine... She was indeed sent by God!

Humanities 2 is killing me. After nung art gallery and art criticism, sandayaw naman next week. May group report pa kami about Art and Religion and timbre & rhythm specimens hw na naman. Nooooo!

Anyway, the biggest Freshie night is nearing and pupunta ako (dami kasing Freshie night sa lb). Yee! I'm uberdooperly excited, tho hindi ko pa alam kung sino kasama ko dun. roomates ko na lang siguro. hahaha!

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me and my roommate, Dana!

PS; Mom told me na tumaba ako! Geesh. oh I know exactly why.. dahil sa french fries, cello's , cordon bleu and krispy kreme. Oh noes... And 2 weeks na rin akong hindi nakapag jog. I'll try na mag jog later, sa saturday and sa sunday. and I'll add 200 sit-ups sa ginagawa ko every night, so that means 500 na. no eating again!

2007-06-29T11:38:00.000+08:00

I'm back again! this time hindi na ako mag-isa umuwi from lb, kasama ko si Joyce (bloc/dorm/class mate). She's really nice and smart din, reminds me of Laya (pareho ng ugali kasi).

I sooo love my college life. I love my subjects (except Humanities 2), my new friends, long walks, air-conditioned classrooms, bloc mates ( upcoming bloc gimiks!), freedom park, LB square, late night chikahan with my roomates and our boylet-wall plan etc.

I love Psychology, lagi akong naglu-look forward sa class na to cos ang dami kong natutunan and enjoy talaga kami. Naalala ko tuloy yung "Ka" game namin..

"Karimarimarim na kalbaryo ng kawawang kabayo na dahil sa kalandian ay nakakilala ng malanding unicorn..."

and siyempre yung sa group namin na

"Sa kabila ng kakapusan ng aming kaalaman sa pagsusulat, ay nakagawa kami ng kwento na iisa lamang ang kabanata. "

hahahaha. sooo effin funny.

I haaaaaate humanities 2, art and music kasi. I'd rather die. Ano ba naman kasi ang alam ko sa visual arts?

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Get well soon Jodi!